Hey, all. Apologies for the massive wall of text here.
I’ve been thinking about this application a lot (probably way more than I should worry about) over the last few days. I’ve been making an active effort to make an actual presence in the community, instead of the no-name I’ve been previously. I will continue to do this regardless of the outcome of this application. However, my conscience won’t allow me to (potentially) accept this role without ensuring the staff are able to make an informed decision.
Tom/Helianthus pointed out that my “notes are great for someone with (my) time”. That’s true, but I don’t feel like it paints a complete, accurate picture of my history. I don’t think it would be a bold assumption to say that there is a significant amount of rule breaking activity on Fulp that doesn’t get tracked on notes, mainly from players failing / opting not to report it. While the application and staff have not asked a question along the lines of “have you broken any rules we don’t know about?”, I personally feel that not volunteering such information is a lie of omission, also known as just a lie.
So, I’m just gonna rip off the band-aid and list every time I can think of where I straight up broke a rule that isn’t already on my notes. All of these events are from 2020, when I was both unaware of some server rules and Fulp culture. That’s not an excuse, it’s a player’s responsibility to read and make sure they understand the rules before playing, but I can certainly state that none of these actions were conceived from a place of maliciousness, trolling, or intent to grief other players.
From what I can remember:
Antag Murderboning: One of my first Traitor rounds, I gunned down a random person to death on the evac shuttle. The SS13 subreddit put me under the impression that antagonist objectives were suggestions rather than directions to strictly follow. If memory serves, I never found my actual assassination target, and had no idea how or where to find my theft objective. So I decided it would be in line with the role to kill SOMEBODY before the end of the round.
Self Antag: There were a couple times I tried to break perma prisoners out for no real reason besides seeing if I could. Once as an engi-borg. Did not harm or kill anyone, and I stopped doing this once I became aware it was against the rules to aid perma prisoners in escaping.
Antag Murderboning: While dead in one round, I accepted the offer to become a positronic brain. Upon being placed into a borg by a traitor Roboticist, he promptly emagged me. He then only whispered, “have fun” and left me be. Lacking direction, I decided to just try to cause as much chaos as possible and distract sec from whatever the Robotocist’s goals were. I went Sec Borg (of course). I dragged Eguns out of the armory when Sec wasn’t around, and left them randomly around the station. I logged into a Security terminal and set several people to arrest status. I went to the bridge and (attempted) to kill the captain with lasers. Most incriminatingly, I used a crowbar to murder a random person in maintenance. No excuse for this round, I was just unaware that antagonists are supposed to stick to their objectives. If I had known better I would have asked the Traitor for more direction, or ahelped if it was clear they were trying to murderbone by proxy.
Self Antag: This one is the worst. I chose Psychologist, went to Sec and asked the Warden if an Officer would be available for mental evaluation. I don’t believe there was a HoS. Did the evaluation with two different officers, and the warden, it was some nice RP. However, I asked the Warden if I could have a disabler as compensation, for self defense purposes. We had built up a good amount of rapport, so he foolishly agreed. At some point I grabbed cable coils too. This was definitely inappropriate, but at the time my reasoning was that if someone was going to try to kill me I could use it to detain them safely.
I continued the round as normal, went to Engineering, asked an engie for evaluation. He agreed, again decent RP. It was pretty late into the round at this point, and still being unaware of self antag rules, I let my improve get a little carried. I told him I was diagnosing him with an overabundance of job-related stress… and that I was prescribing “mandatory fun”. I whipped out my disabler, shot him into stam crit before he could react, and managed to both ziptie and take off his headset before he managed to cry for help. Didn’t actually harm him in any way, which I think surprised him. I informed him I had no intentions of hurting him, and calmly explained that in order for the treatment to work he would have to trust me. I blindfolded and muzzled him, and then of course took him to the bar. After taking the blindfold off, showing him where we were, and asking if I could trust him not to scream, I removed his muzzle. I then proceeded to force him to drink copious amounts of alcohol under the guise of “Doctor’s orders”, and swallow psych pills. A clown and I dragged him around in a locker for a bit while he had an alcohol/drug induced episode. Shuttle was on the way at this point, so I took him back to my office and released him. He expressed great gratitude for showing him the ways of fun.
So, while the interaction worked out well, in hindsight it was done out of very poor judgement. I severely risked ruining another player’s fun by kidnapping them, an explicitly antagonistic action. I just lucked out that the other player appreciated and reciprocated the RP.
There you have it, all the undocumented, but unquestionably rule-breaking actions I’ve taken in my time as a player on Fulp. I am not volunteering this information to try to sabotage my application, or in some weird attempt to manipulate my odds. I would rather this post lead to my denial, than to have chosen to conceal this information and get approved. It’s not worth lying over, is all.
Sorry that this post was so long, but I wanted to make sure I gave as much context as possible for my actions in the past, and as to why I’m making this post.