Well someone had to do it, and she already hates me so might as well be me, I already plan on possibly leaving the server so I’m fine with having a target on my back if this goes wrong, so, well, here goes nothing. Staff reports are private, and I realize that is what this should be, but this needs to be a discussion and I promise she would just delete it anyways so I don’t care, it’s going here.
Let’s talk about a certain staff member. We all know her as Heratio, but I know her as the only staff member on any discord server I’ve ever been on that I have blocked. I’ve been staff on so many servers before, and in that time, I have never seen a staff member be so appalling in so many ways and still get away with it.
My memory is pretty famously not the best, which is why I’m even posting this here, so others can post their thoughts too, as even some of the things she has done to me specifically, I don’t remember. But I will try my best to back up what I say with proof or links, so bear with me, and if anyone has anything to add, please do.
First, let’s start with my very first interaction with any member of the server period. It was with heratio, where, admittedly, I did have a profile picture that wasn’t great because I changed it to spite someone, and forgot to change it back, but was still in no way nsfw, but she immediately banned me from the discord server, and banned me from felinid on the server “to nip this in the bud before it becomes a problem.” Banning someone for something that hasn’t even happened seems a bit much, and apparently other admins agreed with me because I was unbanned not too long after. However since then, she has done nothing but jump into conversations to insult me and bully me. I recently posted a mentor application, and got some actually good feedback, but some feedback was meant only to bully me, which is ironic because shortly after, it was stated that “Your personality in Discord feels unacceptable, especially with plans to become a role model for the community” when a few posts before, Heratio had said to me “Honestly I would rather stick my arm in an industrial garbage disposal than accept this app” and mentioned how I “was an abomination” because of something that I have not a single time ever brought up to anyone, either on discord or on server, and yet somehow is the basis of her hatred towards me. For those disagreeing with my previous point, I challenge you to find a single instance where I brought up anything remotely related to anything sexual or fetish related, save for my steam profile which I didn’t realize showed up for non-friends, and has since been fixed. And no, my profile picture does not count, as that is absolutely not nsfw or fetish related in any way, and my ckey is something I have offered to change, and was told to not bother.
SS13 is a game I really enjoy playing. It can make me frustrated, sure, but I’m working on that, and even so, I try my hardest to improve the game. Part of doing that is coming up with ideas to improve the game, which for an open source game, is very important. But, while trying to have a genuine discussion about something I felt needed fixing, and remember, this is my opinion, and I wanted to discuss it and hear others opinions, this is what I was met with. This is extremely rude, and absolutely unacceptable from someone who is supposed to be in a leadership position. Disagreements during discussions is the norm, as bouncing ideas back and forth is how things improve, but that… That helped no one. It was meant as an attack, and it was absolutely not necessary. When I am bringing up valid points, disagreeing with me is fine but this is not and discourages not just me but other players from making this community better. And when called, she blatantly admits that she isn’t trying to discuss things. I am a coder, and I have stated many times that I am willing to put in work to improve the game, but not if this is how that is met. Her behavior does nothing but hinder the experience for others.
Now, as I have stated before, I like discussions. So I encourage other people to state their thoughts, not just in support of this, but also in opposition. So please, discuss this, but remember that attacking either her or me is not helpful. Please support points with proof if you can, and try not to devolve into name calling or memeing.